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這陣子睡眠品質都不太好，雖說是這陣子但其實也大概是一兩個月了，大概就是從你走了之後開始，活了23年第一次遇到這種事，也有可能是後遺症以及床太熱的關係。

昨晚睡覺時做了一個噩夢，夢到你不知何故而遭遇不測。醒來時嚇出一身冷汗，也想到假若這些事情成真 ，我也只能像小草在風中擺盪。心揪了好一陣子總算與你聯絡上，你說你知道這些不容易，拍拍胸埔拍拍肚子，說現在看到的是真的，鏡頭後面的你是真的。

我一直覺得八月是我的月的，一直說服自己本命月來了事情就會豁然開朗。在一號星期一的上班 如戰場結束後的回家路上，我祈禱的是回到家打開信箱可以看到你的明信片躺在那。打開信箱，躺在那的是閃閃發光的花旗黃金帳戶的宣傳冊。(話說當初幫朋友開的芭樂戶，每個月寄來的厚厚一疊我倒真的從沒打開看過)一進家門聽到可能要搬家的訊息...震驚。我一向是懶惰的，尤其是像搬家這種麻煩到極點的事。嚴重程度看我大學三年半都窩在涼麵屋那個三坪半的房間就知道。不過講真的沒有冷氣我大概也沒辦法度過整個夏天，此時此刻我需要的是逆轉勝的方法。

晚間聽到一首歌，一首會讓人想起往事的歌。
親愛的，你也有你忘不掉的人吧。

Only friends -Rita Calypso

TIME
ONLY TIME CAN ERASE THE MEMORY OF OUR LOVE,
AND ALL THOSE DREAMS THAT WON'T COME TRUE.
YESTERDAY I WALKED THE STREETS
TODAY I RUN IN DISBELIEF
FROM THE MEMORY OF LOSING YOU.

YESTERDAY,
WHEN WE WERE YOUNG OUR LOVE WAS NEW AND WE HAD FUN
PLAYING GAMES AND WONDERING WHAT TO DO.
NOW YESTERDAY IS GONE FOR ME AND ALL I HAVE OUR MEMORIES OF LOVING AND THEN SOMEHOW LOSING YOU.

SOMETIMES I LET MY MIND
DRIFT ENDLESSLY AND IN THE WIND YOUR FACE I SEE
SMILE GENTLY AS YOU TURN TO PASS.
BUT THE LOVE THAT I ONCE HAD FOR YOU IS GONE AND SO
AS THE MEANING TOO
I GUESS IT REALLY NEVER HAD A CHANCE TO LIFE.

AND IF YOU REMEMBER ME
AND YOU'LL SEE ME RUNNIN' THROUGH YOUR MEMORY
DON'T BE AFRAID TO TURN AND LOOK MY WAY.

CO'Z I'LL BE THERE
FOR JUST A WHILE TO CATCH THE SUNSHINE OF YOUR SMILE
TO LAST ME FOR ANOTHER DAY.

AND IF SOMEDAY SOME NEW LOVERS ASK ABOUT YOUR LOVE
ABOUT YOUR PAST
PLEASE TELL THEM THAT YOU AND I WERE ONLY FRIENDS.

YOU AND I WERE ONLY FRIENDS.....